So here I am, just over a year since my last post. A lot of things have changed...
First off, I'm divorced. I finally got tired of taking care of an enormous manchild who threw fits about what I made for dinner and the dishes he was supposed to do after the fact. His solution: eat out more, which we did. This cost us money. A LOT of money. In the end I've been left with nothing and a huge legal bill that I will be paying off for the next six months without his help.
Second, I lost my financial aid for school. This, again, relates back to my ex-husband and his mismanagement of money. I maxed out my funding and instead of having a healthy nest egg of savings built up from refunds, it was all gone due to his insistence that I spend my money on him since he did the same for me, even in times when I didn't ask for it. His solution: he would pay for my schooling with his refunds if that happened. Now that we're divorced he doesn't see the need to hold up that end of the bargain now and I'm floundering.
So I seek comfort in...you guessed it....food. Of the 45 pounds I lost last year, about 15 have returned. There are many nights when I ended up caving and just going out for a quick cheap $5 pizza from Little Caesars and some piss bear from Walgreens because it made the pain go away for a little while. Working out has fallen to the way side. Yoga became too emotional when I just let my mind go and getting up in the morning to go to the gym became non-existent since I haven't been sleeping well. Hitting the snooze has been easier than hitting the weights. When I went to see my doctor last month I got a good finger-wagging. He didn't want to see me put on those pounds again and he could see the signs that I was in danger of that happening.
I'm trying desperately to get back on my diet and stay there. It's hard when the healthiest foods are often the most expensive. I tend to buy fruits and veggies on sale but I don't eat them fast enough, something I desperately need to change. I am also debating in whether or not I should keep my gym membership. I have small weights at home, workout videos and a bike. In times when I have to save money that may have to go, but if I can keep it I will.
